30-Day Challenge Update #1: The Right Motivation

To be honest, one of the reasons I came up with the idea to do this challenge was so that once I return to Colorado and see the guy I kinda like, I could feel good about myself and present myself as someone he could see himself dating... maybe even marrying (cause that's the whole purpose of dating anyway). I'm trying to do this in a very Christian way, through consistently reading my Bible and taking physical and mental care of myself; not in a way that I'd flaunt myself and care too much about what he thinks about my appearance. That's not what it's about. However, I'm finding that as I get deeper into this challenge, I'm not thinking about doing it for him. I'm thinking about doing this for myself and my well-being, as it should be. I guess that was my motivation all along, because I wanted this guy to see that I'm responsible and take care of myself, but I think maybe God is showing me that I don't need to think about this guy at all. Maybe he's turning my attention toward Him and my health, which is where my attention should be. If it is God's will for this guy to fall for me and for me to fall for him one day, then it'll happen. I just pray that I won't worry about it as much as I have sometimes, and that I'll just let it happen. And if nothing happens, I pray that I'll feel peace and contentment about that too. God's plan is always best, so I should follow it with my eyes on Him the whole time.

As a side note, my first kickboxing class was this morning! It really wasn't bad! Pretty intense and not what I'm used to, since I hardly ever exercise, but boy, I can feel it! I know I'll be very sore in the morning. But this is going to be awesome! I'm not planning on backing out. I got this.