The Wheels Are Turning!

Hi there. I haven't posted anything in so long, but I'm just sitting here in school with thirty-five minutes to spare, so I thought, "Why not update my blog?" I don't have much time, so I'll just give you a brief update of what's going on. I am a senior, I have senioritis, I just got accepted to the University of Northern Colorado to major in Technical Theatre and Design, although I am considering going back to England to attend Capernwray Hall, a bible school, I am still searching for my first job because I am broke, I desperately want to go to Disneyland, and Star Wars: The Force Awakens comes out in two days. Crazy, right?!? High school has unfortunately desensitized me more and more over the years, so I am able to remain calm and act bored about all this. But really, this is crazy! Life is actually moving along for me! I'm tired and a bit sad about some things, like how ISIS and other terrorists continue to attack the rest of the world and how we can't afford very much this Christmas, but it's okay. Life is still stunningly beautiful.
As a senior, I am getting more freedom along with more responsibilities. It's scary, yes, but also super exciting. I get to be a grown-up! Being a grown-up can be fun.
I do believe I have senioritis, but somehow I'm getting all A's, and probably at least a 4.0 GPA... must be a Bauer family guardian angel... they sure do love us!
UNC is an easy school to get into, so I wouldn't say my getting accepted is worth much celebration, but still, yay! UNC is only one option, though. I've been wanting to go to Capernwray eventually, but my parents brought it up as a solid possibility a couple months ago, so I will be applying over Christmas break. I'm definitely not to the point of making a final decision, but we'll make up our minds sometime in the upcoming months.
Getting a job is hard-- for me, anyway. I've been applying to multiple places. It's calling them and talking to them and going in for job interviews that's the scary part. Like, really scary. The latest place I applied to was King Soopers, so now I just have to call them (repeatedly) and hope they hire me. PLEASE HIRE ME!!!
I still really want to go to Disneyland for a senior trip, and I have for pretty much all of high school. I'm gradually saving up money for Mom and I to go, if not all five of us. I hope I can make enough money, because this time I want to do what I say I want to do; I don't want it to just be a dream or something I want to do "someday". I've gotta make this happen.
Star Wars. STAR WARS. THERE IS ANOTHER STAR WARS COMING OUT IN TWO DAYS. I can't believe this. I will be a living witness of Star Wars history. I AM SO EXCITED.
So, that's pretty much it for now... I don't know the next time I'll write a post but I thought it would be nice to write an update, especially since lots of cool things are happening right now. I'll try to write about more things in more detail later, like over break... that is, if I manage my time well...

I'm going to miss him...

It's been a while since I posted anything, and I want to write about so many things, but now's not a good time. I'm crazy busy! But before I continue being crazy busy, let me say a few things about what's going on. The big news at the moment is that I'm stage manager for my school's production of Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat (which is huge for me, since I want to follow a career in theatre someday). I'm loving it, and I don't want it to end. Throughout the past few months of preparing for the show, which is less than a week away now, I've been gaining experience and becoming more confident to be a leader and to express my thoughts. I really needed that. Thank you, God! But along with that, I've been spending lots of time around the seniors. Some of the seniors in the show, as well as some of the seniors not in the show, are my friends. I haven't grown extremely close to them, but I am still very fond of them and I'm dreading the day they graduate. They have been at the school ever since I started there in 9th grade. I'm not the only one who will miss them, though. The seniors of Twin Peaks are pretty much the leaders of the high school. A lot of them have grown up at the school, and some are very involved in school activities, clubs, etc. Lots of people will miss them. I'm not really familiar with most of them, but I have interacted with each of them in one way or another. As for the ones I am familiar with, it's hard to believe that they won't be at the school next year, and my class will be the new leaders of the school (though I'm afraid we probably don't deserve that title nearly as much as this year's seniors do). There's one senior in particular who I've been thinking a lot about this weekend. Here, let me start from the beginning.

I didn't officially meet him until last year and that's because our friend groups didn't have any ties before then. Anyway, the few memories I have of him from when I was a freshmen contain my thoughts of him being one of those careless and immature high schoolers. I had no idea who he was, I just saw him around the school every once in a while. My first impression of him was that I needed to stay away from him because he wasn't the kind of person I would want to be friends with. Well, it turns out I was completely wrong. When our friend groups collided, I got to know and observe him a little better. In the time that I've known him, I've been thinking that he is a nice, cool guy with a sense of adolescent and dirty humor. I've always had mixed feelings about him. He has a unique and complicated personality. But lately, since I've been able to be around him more because of the musical, I just can't stop thinking about him. It's not that I have a crush on him (though I might have a small one), it's just that I really admire him and the type of guy he is. Let me give it to you in detail. This guy cares about everyone, and he gives everyone the attention they need; he never seems to leave anyone out of the picture. For example, a while ago, we had oral presentations in Spanish that we had to do in pairs. One of my friends was partnered with this guy. My friend HATES speaking in front of any audience because she's afraid she'll do badly. So when their presentation came, she started sobbing in the middle of it. Our (used-to-be) teacher didn't do or say anything to comfort her, like, usually a teacher would ask if she would like to go out into the hall or go to the bathroom or something, but this teacher just sat there while [the guy I've been talking about] tells her to do different things to calm her down. "Stand up straight on your toes"... "take deep breaths"... etc. And as he's doing this, he's holding her stable and watching her to make sure she's okay. I think it was after that that I began to realize what a great guy he was. I mean, of course I could see how cool he was prior to that, but I think I've been taking in his good deeds more often this year because I know he'll be gone soon. Another thing about him that stands out to me is how gentle he can be. While he can be obnoxious and immature, he can also be very affectionate and considerate. I often see him giving people hugs, like, REAL hugs... actual, sincere front hugs. And when he talks to people, such as myself, he always rests his hand on their back in a very friendly and gentlemanly way. All weekend, I've been boasting to one of my friends about how great he is, and he truly is. Despite some of the things about him that I don't especially like in a person (cussing, dirty mindedness, firm believer of no God), I am very glad to have him in my life, and I wish he wouldn't leave it.